part time dominatrix for hire

Working through the night, like I have been recently, has led me down some interesting paths. Some of introspection and focused work, but on the recreational side of things, it’s as if I am some kind of animal at night. My fantasies and I are becoming acquainted through new websites, videos, pornography, research and, yes, free online forums like Craigslist.

As I have been doing a lot of research on the sex trade, porn, etc, I was curious a few nights ago about what was actually available on Craigslist. I found forums for all kinds of dating, sex acts, and services I actually had to Google. I now know what “pegging” is the correct term for. Who knew there were all of these proper terms for things? Fascinating.

Anyway, among the ads for various kinds of sexual arrangements, I found a request for a dominatrix with little to no experience. Cash paid, in my town, and he would provide all of the equipment. Huh.

I always considered myself to be a “switch”, or someone who enjoys both being submissive and dominant. With my first lover and long term boyfriend, I’d experimented with dominating, hot wax, spanking, biting, restraints, role playing, mind games, etc. I now know that what I considered to be casual sexual experimentation was far from most people’s realm of experience. As a switch, the reason I’m turned on by being submissive is that it’s a welcome release from my Type A personality in every other aspect of my life. Plus, I have absolutely no moral objection to BDSM. Consent is consent.

Bitch, I didn't say you could talk.

Bitch, I didn’t say you could talk.

So, I applied for the Dom position with an email. I got to know him and his requirements a little better through a series of emails. “Slave” (that’s what I’ll call him) only wants some good, old fashioned torture. No sex. No safe-words. 2 hours of play at my complete discretion. His body and mind, for those 2 hours, are mine.  Outside of those 2 hours, we are equals. Discretion is paramount for both of us. Something dark and primal in me had been stirred. I’m sold. I set up a meeting in a public place to discuss it further.

Of course, I told Catch about all of this, which only intrigued him. I love that I can tell him everything. We often toy with switching top/bottom roles. In some comfortable way, he reminds me of my first lover (body style, dark features, sexual interests). As long as the new “job” didn’t change how I am with him in bed, he’s good with it. If anything, it would only feed by desire to explore my sub side. I need the balance. Male/female. Dom/sub. Balance.

My meeting with Slave was supposed to be today. He got called into work unexpectedly, due to the weather (Catch and I both thought he was white collar, but we seem to be wrong), so is rescheduling our meeting with me.

I am curious to see how much of my darker nature will come to the surface. There is some deep corner of my psyche that I have been filling for years, as I learned to “fit in” at various offices. I’ve been rounding my sharp edges and now I get a chance to reset. I have no fear about this potential job. Is that odd? My only actual concern is that I don’t want to have to dress up every time. Hardly an alarm bell of moral trouble, but we’ll see what meeting Slave in person brings up. Perhaps a reality check?

Dominatrix adventure, to be continued….

 

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3 Responses to part time dominatrix for hire

  1. writingthebody says:

    Did he turn up – do tell!

  2. writingthebody says:

    Funny how some talk more than they deliver. And you are right to let it fade….

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